Tag Archives: Alvarez
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::FORTY FOUR:: It’s twenty seven steps from one side of the room to the other. Thirteen, sometimes fourteen, of those steps to cross from one side of the table to the other. I know only because I’ve counted it, over and over again as I paced back and forth. “You’re going to wear a hole [...]
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::FORTY THREE:: The soft knock at the back door sounds strange and at first I thought I had to be dreaming. I woke immediately when I heard the door open. It only sounds strange because I’m listening to it from outside. It’s Alvarez, being quiet, but he’s still making sure he makes enough noise to [...]
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::FORTY TWO:: I had fallen asleep as we had curled up together on the porch glider out back. I insisted she go back to her book, all I wanted was to sit with her. To just be with her. It was a little strange at first because when we’re around each other, all we want [...]
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::FORTY ONE:: She said yes. I couldn’t breathe and I thought I would die if I kept kissing her. Swallowing hard, I pulled her tightly to my chest and buried my nose in her hair, just trying to breathe and not cry. I’m not doing a very good job of it though. She said yes.
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::FORTY:: I couldn’t sleep. I was too excited, too nervous. We had packed when we got back, and left the bags by the door. I wanted to make slow love to her; I wanted to curl up with her, to sleep with her, to talk to her. I wanted to squeeze her so tight she [...]
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::THIRTY NINE:: “I hope you know Vetter, that without you here to use as an excuse on Sunday mornings, Adriana managed to drag me off to church this morning.” I had asked Hicks to give me a minute while I called Alvarez; I don’t have the contacts to arrange a non-civilian flight from here. I [...]
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::THIRTY EIGHT:: I love the rain, more than anything else now, save her, because of her, I love the rain. I used to hate the stuff when I lived here and thought it was depressing, now it’s a reason to pull her close to me and curl under a blanket with her, her back nestled [...]
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::THIRTY SEVEN:: “Brubaker’s going after Douglas, Vetter.” Jeanette and I took a long walk after finishing up at the laundromat. We could have taken a cab back, but it was nice to just walk with her through my old neighbourhood. There isn’t much left of my old school anymore but we walked by that too, [...]
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::THIRTY SIX:: I’m dying to just wake her up. It’s one of those rare LA mornings where everything’s quiet and for just a moment all you can hear are the birds; you never really hear the birds here. In an hour, probably less, the city will be full of the sounds of cars and traffic [...]











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